I’m exhausted but scared to cut contact
I was adopted when I was very young and my adoptive dad is an alcoholic. My family sees the problem, including my mum who has told me numerous times how afraid she is of him as well. I have horrible memories of my childhood and was always so scared to come home after school. They have discussed divorce but it never goes through. It’s so frustrating because I’m an adult now and I still feel terrified to go home. I remember he would get drunk most nights, get very touchy, and shout horrible things. My mum would go out, leaving me alone with him, and then come home a few hours later acting like nothing had happened. I have tried talking to him about his drinking many times but nothing changes. I feel so let down and want to cut contact with him so badly. I’m so tired.