The Fall
Hopefully you will read and possibly reread what I have put down.
Hopefully you will read and possibly reread what I have put down.
Addiction taking priority
The damage letter
I hope mum, that you won’t be angry or upset with me sharing this.
I hope mum, that you won’t be angry or upset with me sharing this.
You love the person you just hate what they are doing and that it is NEVER your fault
I was left to pick up my brothers and sisters as she was asleep drunk. We would end up locked out until she woke up.
I was left to pick up my brothers and sisters as she was asleep drunk. We would end up locked out until she woke up.
Kelly Pegg – #LunchtimeLives
‘Probably from the age of about six I knew what alcohol was.’
‘Probably from the age of about six I knew what alcohol was.’
The conspiracy of silence has made sure I never ask
Sometimes I feel relief that she is gone, relief that the merry go round I was on has finally stopped and will never start again. Guilt is the main emotion that has accompanied this relief
Sometimes I feel relief that she is gone, relief that the merry go round I was on has finally stopped and will never start again. Guilt is the main emotion that has accompanied this relief
When I was younger I always knew there was something not quite right
The point I want to make is that I don’t blame my dad anymore – he was ill – alcoholism is an illness.
The point I want to make is that I don’t blame my dad anymore – he was ill – alcoholism is an illness.
It took me years to admit to myself that I had a mother suffering from alcoholism
I had never been aware of what was wrong with her. I had had no one to guide me or to tell me that it was not my problem or that she had one.
I had never been aware of what was wrong with her. I had had no one to guide me or to tell me that it was not my problem or that she had one.
I read the letter to children, it made me cry
To the world outside everything was fine, a normal middle class family.
To the world outside everything was fine, a normal middle class family.
Alcohol allowed me to feel like I fitted in
It was the first time I really knew what was wrong with me. For years I had been drinking just to exist but had always justified it as something I deserved.
It was the first time I really knew what was wrong with me. For years I had been drinking just to exist but had always justified it as something I deserved.
It felt as though our family had a shameful secret that couldn’t be discussed
I wanted people to understand, to know what I was going through, but no one understands unless they’ve experienced it themselves and I was too messed up to let people get close.
I wanted people to understand, to know what I was going through, but no one understands unless they’ve experienced it themselves and I was too messed up to let people get close.
