A sad Christmas
Mothers aren’t supposed to be alcoholics. I’m an adult and for most of my childhood, my mother hid her secret of drinking alcohol. She is now dependant and experiences shakes if she does not drink.
I feel cheated. I feel anxious. I feel angry and I feel resentment towards her.
I don’t believe for a second that she has thought of how her drinking affects any one of us in the family and not does she believe it is a problem.
How do we help someone who doesn’t want help? I guess that we dont…
Christmas should be a time of enjoyment. Instead I was fuelled with anxiety of the big day ahead and fear of how she would be. Would there be a fight? An argument? Would I find her slumped out on the sofa?
I’m an awful person. I took it upon myself to water her drinks down so that I wouldn’t find her in the above state. It didn’t stop the drinking, of course, and she continued for days later.
I felt a strong urge to protect my siblings and to save Christmas.
Has anyone been in a similar position? Does anyone have any ‘solutions?’