Anyone here with alcoholic and masterly manipulative mother?

I know some alcoholics are clumsy and ‘fun’ but mine was and is so evil when drunk .. and that has got earlier in the day as she gets older.
She has however had the ability to hide it outside of the home and deflect a lot by making me the ‘bad one’ because I called her out on it.

She has tried to kill me a few times in my life, and I mean proper attempts which were accidentally thwarted by my father coming home a day early from work or me being able to escape.

I don’t need to list the whole life as I know if you are reading or responding it is because you get it.

Having the mother be the abusive alcoholic is weird as your alleged primary care giver or the one you are supposed to bond with and learn attachment cannot provide that as drink comes first. But no one seems to want to accept mothers being the drunks or abusers.

I am now 50 and have no contact with her. .. even though some family are trying to guilt me into the ‘she’s old now’ etc. I grieved her years ago.

Anyone else here that had mother alcoholic?