From the outside it was a life that many people would envy but my strongest childhood memory is one of fear.
It’s vital that we take away the shame from the illness of alcoholism, so that people aren’t frightened to come forward and ask for help.
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It’s vital that we take away the shame from the illness of alcoholism, so that people aren’t frightened to come forward and ask for help.
But you will keep the secret to yourself that isn’t even a secret.. You don’t talk about it, you don’t talk about yourself, you don’t talk about your family, you keep your hopes and dreams to yourself but you don’t know why.
I am haunted by the idea that the telling of these dark truths is an unwarranted betrayal of my mother.
The fight to stay sane is sometimes so difficult there were, and are, times when I wonder if it was all worth it.
As a perfect child of an alcoholic, I had not told anyone my story. Even my husband had not heard the whole tale, only bits gleaned from snatches of conversation.
I had three daddies. ‘Nice daddy’, ‘funny daddy’ who was just slightly drunk, and then of course ‘nasty daddy’.
As far as I was concerned, it was my fault she did this.
I remember I used to find empty drink bottles, hidden in the garage.
Dad drank despite how well I behaved.
I always felt so alone and scared whilst being a part of an extremely loving family.
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