I feel like I cannot talk to my friends about my Dad’s alcoholism
My friends all have lovely parents who are nothing like my own and it makes me feel really lonely. I have recently got a councillor, and although it is helping it feels way too serious all the time and it hurts not to be able to tell my friends about what’s happening in my life. I have to just pretend that everything’s okay and it’s so exhausting. I remember once I was telling my closest friends about it (I only have two friends that know anything about my Dad) and she said that she felt like me telling her this stuff makes her feel like she can’t tell me things cause ‘ I have it so much worse than her’. She shouldn’t have said that. I don’t think she meant it the way it came across, I think she was just telling me how she felt. But ever since then I haven’t told anyone outside of my family and my councillor about it. I feels so constricting and I feel so lonely all the time because I have no one to talk to. I feel like no one else near me understands my situation and like I am completely alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have my sister, but she is two years older than me and is leaving to go travelling around the world soon. What happens then? My Mum ( I think in an attempt to make herself feel better ) just makes excuses and pretend I’m overreacting, which is really hurtful and invalidates my feelings, and my Dad is the one with the problem. My sister is the only person who has always stuck with me and I just couldn’t handle it if she wasn’t here. I’m crying whilst writing this because this is a really sensitive thing for me to talk about. I just cannot handle feeling so lonely all the time. Always having to watch what I say just in case the truth ever slips out is just so tiring. I don’t know what to do anymore please please help me anyone who understands or who has gone through something similar.