Seeing my mum after no contact
I have been no contact with my alcoholic mother for approx 18 months due to her alcoholism and I have heard from family that she has drastically worsened over that time… she has been hospitalised various times and is now addicted to crack cocaine as well as alcohol, and is generally in a really bad way. My contact decision was absolutely right for me as it has meant I am no longer constantly worrying about her or upset at her state.
However, my aunty passed away a few weeks ago and the funeral is due to take place next week. I am going to have to come face to face with my mother after all that time and I am really nervous. I don’t want to see her because a) it is likely she will be completely out of it…she is literally never sober b) it will really upset me seeing her in such a state because I still love her despite everything c) she really hates me for cutting her out of my life and it’s likely she will start verbally abusing me when she see’s me. d) it is going to be really awkward for me and other family members.
I have got to go to the funeral to support my cousin, who I am very close to. has anyone been in a similar situation? Any advice? Any coping strategies?
Thanks all <3