We were a complicated family
All I wanted was for her to love us, to love me, and I think she did but just could not show it.
All I wanted was for her to love us, to love me, and I think she did but just could not show it.
Death of a parent
Ceri Walker – #LunchtimeLives
‘Mum’s addiction was nothing to do with me. But somewhere in my brain it’s still telling me, She did reject you.’
‘Mum’s addiction was nothing to do with me. But somewhere in my brain it’s still telling me, She did reject you.’
Struggling to define what you have made for yourself
They worry about the potentially embarrassing repercussions.
They worry about the potentially embarrassing repercussions.
My dad’s alcoholism took a turn for the worse when I was 7 years old
Just because you’ve had an alcoholic parent, doesn’t mean you’re destined to go down that path.
Just because you’ve had an alcoholic parent, doesn’t mean you’re destined to go down that path.
And I’ll see you again when it’s time for me
As a young girl I remember the fear of coming in from school.
As a young girl I remember the fear of coming in from school.
One year ago this week, my hero died peacefully in his hospice bed
I went into “protection mode” – to protect myself from any further hurt or pain.
I went into “protection mode” – to protect myself from any further hurt or pain.
Rest easy my hero
I learnt not to talk, not to trust and not to feel.
I learnt not to talk, not to trust and not to feel.
I never knew when I came home from school whether she would be sober, drunk or dead.
I loved my mum so much, but I was frustrated as I couldn’t understand why, if she loved me, she wouldn’t just stop drinking.
I loved my mum so much, but I was frustrated as I couldn’t understand why, if she loved me, she wouldn’t just stop drinking.
Trying to usher my friends out as quickly as possible as they giggled at my drunken parents
The pain at hearing my dad had died was immeasurable, my world stopped but the world continued to turn.
The pain at hearing my dad had died was immeasurable, my world stopped but the world continued to turn.
Forgiveness
All I feel now is sadness at what my dad went through, I truly believe no one chooses to become an alcoholic, it can just happen.
All I feel now is sadness at what my dad went through, I truly believe no one chooses to become an alcoholic, it can just happen.
