The point I want to make is that I don’t blame my dad anymore – he was ill – alcoholism is an illness.
The point I want to make is that I don’t blame my dad anymore – he was ill – alcoholism is an illness.
It was horrible. When she used to get up in the morning she acted as if nothing was wrong.
It was horrible. When she used to get up in the morning she acted as if nothing was wrong.
I still suffer to this day, I suffer from the shame, I suffer thinking it’s something I have done, it will not go away, the feeling that I was and am worthless, will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I still suffer to this day, I suffer from the shame, I suffer thinking it’s something I have done, it will not go away, the feeling that I was and am worthless, will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I will never forget my past and what’s happened in my life. I just try and believe my mum and dad are at peace now and in a better place.
I will never forget my past and what’s happened in my life. I just try and believe my mum and dad are at peace now and in a better place.
To the world outside everything was fine, a normal middle class family.
To the world outside everything was fine, a normal middle class family.
It was the first time I really knew what was wrong with me. For years I had been drinking just to exist but had always justified it as something I deserved.
It was the first time I really knew what was wrong with me. For years I had been drinking just to exist but had always justified it as something I deserved.
Coming home from school was terrifying. I knew every floorboard that creaked, every door that squeaked and became expert at moving silently.
Coming home from school was terrifying. I knew every floorboard that creaked, every door that squeaked and became expert at moving silently.
“Don’t trust, don’t talk, don’t feel,” these are the rules of a dysfunctional family.
“Don’t trust, don’t talk, don’t feel,” these are the rules of a dysfunctional family.
I wanted people to understand, to know what I was going through, but no one understands unless they’ve experienced it themselves and I was too messed up to let people get close.
I wanted people to understand, to know what I was going through, but no one understands unless they’ve experienced it themselves and I was too messed up to let people get close.
Why do I SAY ‘Yes’, when I mean to say ‘no’?
Why do I SAY ‘Yes’, when I mean to say ‘no’?
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