Living in a house full of boxes of delivered wine, shouting parents, empty bottles
I realised that I had kept all my feelings bottled inside me for so many years.
I realised that I had kept all my feelings bottled inside me for so many years.
Feeling guilt, shame or embarrassment
After my dad died
I was seven years old, all on my own.
I was seven years old, all on my own.
INNOCENT OR GUILTY?
Sometimes society and family will imply that you are guilty for having a parent that drinks.
Sometimes society and family will imply that you are guilty for having a parent that drinks.
One minute my dad could be the most amazing man in the world, yet the next he was an ugly, frightening man
I never blamed myself for his drinking, but I always wondered how different my life would be if he didn’t drink.
I never blamed myself for his drinking, but I always wondered how different my life would be if he didn’t drink.
My reactions are so different to others and I feel very self-conscious about it
I feel so different to other people and compare myself to my work colleagues who had a normal upbringing.
I feel so different to other people and compare myself to my work colleagues who had a normal upbringing.
When I was younger I always knew there was something not quite right
The point I want to make is that I don’t blame my dad anymore – he was ill – alcoholism is an illness.
The point I want to make is that I don’t blame my dad anymore – he was ill – alcoholism is an illness.
How can you love the person that made you cry?
It was horrible. When she used to get up in the morning she acted as if nothing was wrong.
It was horrible. When she used to get up in the morning she acted as if nothing was wrong.
I wasn’t allowed any friends in the house nor did I have any birthday parties or go to any parties
I still suffer to this day, I suffer from the shame, I suffer thinking it’s something I have done, it will not go away, the feeling that I was and am worthless, will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I still suffer to this day, I suffer from the shame, I suffer thinking it’s something I have done, it will not go away, the feeling that I was and am worthless, will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I read the letter to children, it made me cry
To the world outside everything was fine, a normal middle class family.
To the world outside everything was fine, a normal middle class family.
I absorb everyone’s trauma like a sponge
I look forward to finding ‘me’; the woman I was meant to be; to being affirmed in my journey. I didn’t know what I was looking for, and had almost given up. Now I know; it’s me!
I look forward to finding ‘me’; the woman I was meant to be; to being affirmed in my journey. I didn’t know what I was looking for, and had almost given up. Now I know; it’s me!
