MY LIFE
I feel guilty for feeling it and give myself a 1000 reasons not to be happy.
I feel guilty for feeling it and give myself a 1000 reasons not to be happy.
Trying to help them stop
Ceri Walker – #LunchtimeLives
‘Mum’s addiction was nothing to do with me. But somewhere in my brain it’s still telling me, She did reject you.’
‘Mum’s addiction was nothing to do with me. But somewhere in my brain it’s still telling me, She did reject you.’
I would hide the fact she drank like it was a dark secret
It was like living with Jekyll and Hyde. When she was sober she was lovely and when she was drunk she was awful!
It was like living with Jekyll and Hyde. When she was sober she was lovely and when she was drunk she was awful!
I had a happy childhood until I first realised my dad was an alcoholic around the age of 12
I have accepted that this is the way it is and I have to make the most of the family relationships that I do have.
I have accepted that this is the way it is and I have to make the most of the family relationships that I do have.
We both ended up leaving home around 16, because we could not cope with the situation anymore
For a second I had a glimpse of a family where alcohol was not the priority.
For a second I had a glimpse of a family where alcohol was not the priority.
“Nanny drinks her special juice out of a cup”
She kicked off at my friends and had to be physically restrained.
She kicked off at my friends and had to be physically restrained.
“It’s not her that hates you, it’s the disease”
When the bell rung at 3pm, most of my friends couldn’t wait to get out of school. For me, I dreaded that sound.
When the bell rung at 3pm, most of my friends couldn’t wait to get out of school. For me, I dreaded that sound.
I feel mum and myself tried to cope in our own way. Mine through starvation and mum through drinking
Why do I go back to her out of fear of what she is doing to herself?
Why do I go back to her out of fear of what she is doing to herself?
I have cared for my dad for half of my adult life and I’m not going to do it any more
He has never forgiven me for ‘abandoning’ him at this point.
He has never forgiven me for ‘abandoning’ him at this point.
The second he admits he has a drinking problem, then it becomes real
I have tried every trick in the book to get my dad to go and get help.
I have tried every trick in the book to get my dad to go and get help.
