How can you love the person that made you cry?
It was horrible. When she used to get up in the morning she acted as if nothing was wrong.
It was horrible. When she used to get up in the morning she acted as if nothing was wrong.
Experience of abuse
I wasn’t allowed any friends in the house nor did I have any birthday parties or go to any parties
I still suffer to this day, I suffer from the shame, I suffer thinking it’s something I have done, it will not go away, the feeling that I was and am worthless, will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I still suffer to this day, I suffer from the shame, I suffer thinking it’s something I have done, it will not go away, the feeling that I was and am worthless, will stay with me for the rest of my life.
I tried to act normal but when I got home usually I would cook tea and look after my mum
I will never forget my past and what’s happened in my life. I just try and believe my mum and dad are at peace now and in a better place.
I will never forget my past and what’s happened in my life. I just try and believe my mum and dad are at peace now and in a better place.
The person I was was frightened by rejection
I deal now with the ‘who I am’, and I know I am a strong person but more importantly I know life can be good for me again.
I deal now with the ‘who I am’, and I know I am a strong person but more importantly I know life can be good for me again.
I had a feeling that something was different and that she was not meant to be acting in this way
To anyone that has gone through a similar thing I would like to say: things get better, and don’t be afraid to ask for help.
To anyone that has gone through a similar thing I would like to say: things get better, and don’t be afraid to ask for help.
I knew every floorboard that creaked, every door that squeaked
Coming home from school was terrifying. I knew every floorboard that creaked, every door that squeaked and became expert at moving silently.
Coming home from school was terrifying. I knew every floorboard that creaked, every door that squeaked and became expert at moving silently.
The alcoholism and the madness left little room for me to grow up safely
“Don’t trust, don’t talk, don’t feel,” these are the rules of a dysfunctional family.
“Don’t trust, don’t talk, don’t feel,” these are the rules of a dysfunctional family.
It felt as though our family had a shameful secret that couldn’t be discussed
I wanted people to understand, to know what I was going through, but no one understands unless they’ve experienced it themselves and I was too messed up to let people get close.
I wanted people to understand, to know what I was going through, but no one understands unless they’ve experienced it themselves and I was too messed up to let people get close.
Working it out: The effects of living with alcoholism
Why do I SAY ‘Yes’, when I mean to say ‘no’?
Why do I SAY ‘Yes’, when I mean to say ‘no’?
I felt like I was made up of pieces from other people
I have had the courage to heal the sickness inside me. To rid myself of the shame and blame and guilt that was never mine anyway.
I have had the courage to heal the sickness inside me. To rid myself of the shame and blame and guilt that was never mine anyway.
