From the outside it was a life that many people would envy but my strongest childhood memory is one of fear.
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It’s vital that we take away the shame from the illness of alcoholism, so that people aren’t frightened to come forward and ask for help.
But you will keep the secret to yourself that isn’t even a secret.. You don’t talk about it, you don’t talk about yourself, you don’t talk about your family, you keep your hopes and dreams to yourself but you don’t know why.
I am haunted by the idea that the telling of these dark truths is an unwarranted betrayal of my mother.
The fight to stay sane is sometimes so difficult there were, and are, times when I wonder if it was all worth it.
I had three daddies. ‘Nice daddy’, ‘funny daddy’ who was just slightly drunk, and then of course ‘nasty daddy’.
As far as I was concerned, it was my fault she did this.
“I love/hate you”, “I’m proud of you” / “ What the hell are you doing with your life?
I was daddy’s girl, the guilt I felt when I realized what he had done to my family but I’d been to wrapped up in how much love I had for him to see it.
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